I'm down, I'm up, I'm down!!

Well that is how my emotions are, but I am happy to report that my weight is down, has stayed down and continues to go down. YAY!!!!  I am down 10 pounds.  It has been a long, hard road. This has been one of the hardest weeks I've had in a long time.  It's interesting what a psychological part of eating is.  It may not be the same for everyone, but it is definitely me. Food soothes me, calms me, reduces my stress and I thoroughly enjoy it!

This also been a hard week too.  I have completely finished breastfeeding and pumping and am in MAJOR pain!  Plus I am sure I have hormones galore going on.

We went to a wedding Saturday night and it was the first time since my diet that I was around "food".  It was really tempting not to just eat some and see how much remorse I would feel.  They served Chinese food which is one of my faves.  Then the cake, oh my gosh the cake, there was one layer that was chocolate with a fudge middle, it looked delish!!!  Michael didn't get any luckily or I might have had a taste!!

That saying, "Nothing tastes as good as thin" is SO true.  I bought a new shirt a few weeks back and couldn't fit in to it.  I thought to give it another try and I wore it yesterday and it looked great.

I have noticed the weight loss in my face and my back - I have less back fat!! YAY!!!

If I can do this diet anyone can.  One thing that has helped is having my meat prepared and ready to go in the mornings.  Michael has been a big support which is great!  And then I also found the DIYHCG FaceBook page and they have lots of recipe and meal ideas. 

I think the may thing to do on HCG is get creative with your meals, so that you don't get bored and make stupid rash eating choices.  I also researched the maintenance on this diet and I think it'll be relatively easy because A) I won't want to gain any weight back and B) There is nothing wrong with eating completely healthy.  I want to be a good example to my daughter and I don't her to have a weight problem. 

I can have wedding cake, candy, popcorn and peanut butter rice crispy treats BUT in moderation!! There is nothing wrong with that concept at all!!!

It's all what you KNOW!  And I KNOW I am enjoying this weight loss thing.

This sucks!!

Today is my fourth day doing HCG and I am down 5.4 pounds, so I am going to keep going.  This has been very difficult for me the last couple of days.  Day 1 and 2 weren't so bad.  The headaches have been bad, my anxiety has risen but I want this!!  I want to be thin!!!  I will keep going.  The meals are actually quite tasty and I love the fresh ingredients that are used.  the meals are just small and there aren't very many of them.  Quite the transition when you go from eating whenever and whatever you want!! 

The point is not for me to moan and groan but to say that I KNOW it's going to be challenging but it can and will be done!!  I will be thin!  I can already tell a difference in my face.  My second chin is almost gone!!

My motivation for all of this is my daughter.  She is the light of my life and she deserves a skinny, fun, cute mom!! My inspiration is my sister.  She did amazing at it!  And she still continues to do it and looks amazing!!

Today at work a lady offered me a brownie!!!  I declined- that's huge for me!!

Well her we go!!

I KNOW I don't want to be fat anymore!

I am pretty fed up with myself for being fat and just not caring.  I have let myself eat and drink whatever I wanted ever since I brought Maizy into this world.  I have devoured delicious and memorable meals  and I never thought or cared much about the consequences WELL now I do!!

I have decided to particpate in the HCG diet.  I have done it before but only half-assed and still lost weight.  This time I am going to follow it exact and have great success. 

I had an eye opening experience.  I was at the store and saw this darling baby with a big fat mom and realized I don't want to be that.  Maizy is super adorable, fun, energetic, darling and she deserves a mom all the same!!

I plan to write all about my experience, ups and downs but I know the end result will be great.  My sister did the HCG with much success and I know that if she can do it, I can too!!

This morning I woke up hungry, have a headache and am starving!! But this too shall pass.

Here we go!!!!