WTF!?!?

Ok I have never been known as a patient person or do I declare to be one.  I have been working out good and hard for the last 2 1/2 weeks.  I do love how I feel while do it, but like I mentioned before the after math is quite tricky - sweaty, stinky, red face and crazy hair while at work is not the greatest.  I just fear when someone comes near me is all.  Ugh!

Anywho, on my scale in the bathroom you can track your weight and it tells you how much you have lost - not in my case - or gained.

Well Maizy was playing on it and it switched to my profile and showed my weight back from when I was doing HCG.  I had lost 13 pounds on the 2 weeks I did HCG and have since gained 20 pounds.  You do the math. I am fat! 

I just keep telling myself that it's all going to just fall off, that's right just fall off or melt away if you will, all at once.  In the meantime I will continue to be a sweaty bitch 3-4 times a week.

UGH!!!

So I have worked out lots of times now and still have not lost any weight!  But it could be the fact that Michael made yummy brownies from scratch this weekend and I drank X number of beers last night while we watched the roast of Charlie Sheen. 

This weight loss thing is hard and it's definitely harder the older I get.  Not like this is some kind of news flash I guess I just had to discover all of this by myself!  UGH!!

I have not told anyone except for this blog that I have started working out on my lunch breaks at least 3 times a week, but I am not feeling any benefits, but I am not going to give up - not yet anyway.

I am still tired and even more so at night.
I have bad hair the latter part of the rest of the work day.
I have the pleasure of wearing my grubbies in the halls at work and running into the execs. Nice!
I am S.O.R.E.
I am still fat.
I want plastic surgery to get rid of my fat!!!!

Workout Shmurkout!!

So I started working out a week and a half ago on my work lunches and am having a million mixed emotions!!

I know it's good for me, but I am SUPER tired and sore.

I have gained 4 pounds!!  Yes 4 pounds since working my ass off.

I have more energy, but it's sporadic!

I am gross and sweaty at work the rest of the day.

I can't stop since I know it's good for me.

It's embarrassing to walk the halls of the office in my super hero tee, sweaty with a red face like a school boy at recess.

I am sick of being a fatty mcfatty, so I will give this another week or two and I am sure I will get addicted and won't be able to stop - that's my goal.

I want to have another baby and I refuse to be overweight like I was in the beginning.  I refuse to go back to the hospital 5 days after giving birth and I refuse to be a fat mom.

Maizy is SO beautiful and perfect and she deserves a cute little mom!  I am going to try my hardest.  Plus I want us all to live a healthy life and I need to lead by way of example.

Wish me luck for the hundredth time.