I'm back!

I am back and ready to go!  Thanksgiving was rough for so many reasons.  I am thankful for so much and that I got to share the holiday with those I love most, but so thankful that it's over too!

I got on the scale on Monday and DIED!! Then came back and here I am. Fat and unhappy.  I want to put it out there in the universe how much I weigh and therefore stating how much I have to lose, but I can't.  I just can't do that to myself or embarrass my loved ones like that. 
Needless to say I have lost 3 pounds since Monday and I am going strong.  Thank you Medifast for making yummy tasty meals.  Thank you for being there when I need you.  Thank you for making this super difficult time for me easier.  Let's just say I am 10, yes, 10 pounds less than when I was 9 months pregnant!  Scary!! How did I let this happen?  How come I didn't stop it?  How come I didn't do anything sooner?

I remember seeing an overweight person with my family and them just being completely disgusted and asking "how could they let them self get so fat!?!?"  Well now I know and it's easy, getting fat is easy and it happens so fast. It's hard to lose weight and I can definitely sympathize with that. 

For me the the first step in losing weight it to set a goal, a feasible one, and a goal meant for yourself and no one else.
 
I will lose 50 pounds by Thanksgiving 2012. 

Then you need to think of things that motivate you to obtain your goal. Here is my list of motivations! Not in order of importance.

• I have a beautiful daughter who deserves a beautiful mom.
• I have tonz of cute clothes that I have spent good money on that I can't wear. I want to look cute again.
• I want to be someone that my partner is proud of being seen with. (disclaimer: he never leads me to believe otherwise, so this motivation really is for me.)
• I want to look good in pictures and not want to hurl every time I see a pic of myself.
• I want to be healthy and get off my blood pressure meds.

Ok that list is plenty good to motivate me. Oh and one more thing.  I have a little bit of competitiveness in me and my co-worker is dieting/exercising and I want to look better than her!  Being a little competitive never hurt anyone. 

Another thing that I need to remind myself of is yesterday was picture day at my work and I saw the pics and I was in complete and utter disgust after seeing myself!!! 

K here we go.  I'm back!!

I couldn't help but feel like this guy when I saw my pic yesterday!  UGH!!